wat to do

im not sure what to do about this person. i thought they were out of my life but now they suddenly found their way back in. i care about them and worried all the time. they made the choice to leave and now their coming back. do i let them? i feel our friendship was good and that they are realizing what went wrong but i dont want to be the one hurt again. so many decisions and never enough thought.

not sure anymore

im not sure about much anymore.

• not sure if i should keep going down the path im going
• if i have anyone
• if i am loved
• if i died that people would come to pay their respects
• why he came back into my life and why it hurts so much
• who my true friends are
• if im ever going to become anything important
• if im going to find that one who will love me for all my flaws and point out that those are the best quirks about me
• why i feel so much older than some of my closest friends
• if he really cares about me as much as he says
• if he really loved me
• where these tears come from
• why i feel the way i do
• how much longer til i find true happiness in others and myself
• if it's all truely worth it

he tells me he's there for me always...i try so hard to believe him...i do...i just doubt myself as well as others from time to time. so much has happened and i dont know if i'll ever be the same. sometimes i wish i was the one to get the real hug, real kiss, real cuddle, real flowers, real love

it'll all get better...just how much longer?